that every comment Pistol Pete had said to me hadn't been deleted after he was banned

we had some real light hearted fun in print

i know he was a bad actor..and had some very questionable attitudes

he definitely loved to stir the pot

i guess it worries me some that he could be so abruptly banned...and censored right out of the READER

was he like Josh Board a HATE MONGER???

maybe he was

conflicting opinions r often good when they r treated like two stones rubbing against and smoothing eachother into resolution or at least a respectful space of non similar diversity

i'll miss Pete tho

because he loved to play

because he gave me new songs to listen to

because inside that tortured pessimism was a optimistic person waiting to be reclaimed

but i'm old u see...and 98% non-judgmental... not willing to lose a new found maybe friend...it didn't matter to me that we didn't think alike...and i could see that "lets p*ssem off " snicker in his comments...and most of the time it just made me smile a little

he had a tough row to hoe as a sexually abused child and jailbird adult

maybe those things weren't good enuff excuses..maybe they made my heart too tender and accomidating to a wanker who didn't deserve some extra understanding

maybe he deserved what he got..being banned i mean...socially disclaimed...he often rolled in the barbed wire of his own discontentment with society...u could hear the skin shredding and bleedin in his remarks

the anger pouring out in foul mouthed verbage

maybe i'll miss him anyway