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I struggled with the theory that there was a "God" for a few years during my early life. This was before I was raped and I started doing drugs so those weren't influences on my thoughts. I started having dreams that were presented in parts. Part 1: I'm walking down a medium sized hallway. The walls and celing are brick and mortar. The floor is dirt. I'm stacked. I look like Conan the Barbarian. My hair is long and flowing. There is a quest in my eye. I stumble upon a velvet curtain. The dream ends. Part 2: I open the curtain to reveal a very large room. It too has walls and a celing made of brick and mortar. I'm hesitant but I step inside. The dream ends. Part 3: I turn to my side and look. There's a large wood table with people seated around it. Not just mere mortals, these were Gods. Every God known to the free thinking world sat around it. In the dead center of the table was a slow spinning globe. They are in a heated discussion but I can't understand the words. The dream ends. Part 4: I walk cautiously to the table. Nobody notices me. There is an empty seat. I approach and there is a voice. It tells me to sit so I obey. As I sit, I understand their conversation even though they speak in native tongues. They are discussing the world at large and the history thus far. They are speaking of a man named Hitler. They don't call him evil even though they are wary of his motives. The dream ends. Part 5: They end their discussion of Hitler and start discussing me. I don't want to be rude and interupt. They talk about the future and how evil I am but that I have a golden heart. They laugh and say that I am a product of my environment. Then it hits me...I am my own God. I and I alone control my destiny. The dream ends. I believe in A God. Not THE God but A God. I believe that we have a creator. Who or what that creator is, I don't know but I believe he exists even if I am that creator. I don't believe in a book written upteen thousands of years ago by a human that had no current grasp of the scientific world. I don't believe in a church that says it's ok to stone a man for adultery and that says it hates gays. I don't believe in organized religion. I pray everyday even when I don't realize it. I don't need a house of the Holy to seek when there's A God inside my very soul that I can communicate with. I don't believe in hocus pocus. I don't believe in the Ten Commandments. I do believe that when I die, my God will welcome me back where ever it was that I came from. He'll talk shop with me over a cold bottle of Leinenkugel's. He may even have another mission for me in another universe. I believe in A God. A loving God. A patient God. A hero God.
— November 21, 2009 9:46 p.m.

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