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"More than anything, the biggest reaction I've seen since the shooting is a lot of jokes, especially jokes at my expense, about me being the one who could go crazy. Which is kind of fucked up, but it's also kind of funny at the same time. I mean, I'm the same age, the same nationality, the same major, and I came to this country around the same time as the guy who did the shootings. So I can see the humor in those similarities. But it could happen to anyone. It could be you or anyone who has so much in common with someone who goes crazy. It doesn't mean you're crazy. But it did help me identify with what he must have felt like.

"There've been times in my life when I've felt crazy, when I've felt like there's no logic for the world to run by. But there's no excuse for what he did. He just lost it. He fucked up. He did something terrible. But at the same time, I can understand what it's like to feel totally alone and isolated. Because moving to the United States at a young age is a very alienating experience. You try to tell yourself it's not an issue and that you're the same as everyone else, but really you are different, and you have to deal with it every day. You see it in people's faces every day. Even if people treat you as nice as they can, you see their face, and it's different from yours. And you feel it come across on some level in the smallest things. You always feel that you're an outsider. And there's no way to change that."

Kyle Dunne, 20, Junior, UCSD, Literature Major, La Jolla

"The shooting came up in most of the classes I was in, but other than that, on campus I didn't notice anything between classes at all.

"I can imagine that kind of thing happening here, or anywhere, really. I mean, it did happen at my school once. I went to Granite Hills, and when I was a freshman, there was another student, who was actually in one of my classes, and during lunch period one day, he came by and just basically went up to the office and started shooting into the windows there. And there were a few injuries, but nothing too serious. Luckily, our campus resource officer was right there, and he was able to react on the spot and prevent him from really doing any damage. So I've been in a lockdown situation.

"The kid who did it kind of kept to himself. And he definitely had anger-management issues. Like, in class, he would throw things down and get visibly angry at teachers. But the hindsight thing... You know, it doesn't surprise you, like, with his personality -- it made sense, after the fact. But you could never predict something like that. There are a lot of people I've known who've had similar personalities, and they've never done anything like that and probably won't ever do something like that.

"But since the shooting at my school -- and it's reinforced even more now -- I've definitely changed the way I act towards people. I'm a lot more outgoing now. I try to be really friendly, especially to people who seem to need friends. I mean, they say the guy at Virginia Tech didn't really know anyone in class, and maybe he just felt isolated and alone. So I think maybe if I'm outgoing and I talk to people, then maybe there's less chance of that happening somewhere, or something. Maybe I'm doing some good, hopefully."

Terra Miller, 20, City College, Sophomore, Psychology Major, North Park by way of Houston, Texas

"There wasn't much reaction around here after the shooting. But I just assume most people don't really pay attention to the news a lot and to how significant an event like that really was. But for myself, because I do pay attention to the news, there was that fear after the shooting. I was a little paranoid. Looking around more, checking people out.

"Oh, it could absolutely happen here. No doubt about it. A college campus is such a free place. People are coming and going. There's so many different people. So many different ethnicities and people of different origins interacting. I think anything like that could happen.

"But that's what a college campus is meant to be. It's meant to be free, because it's a place of learning. I think having a lot of security in a place like this would change the whole purpose of college. And, honestly, you're not going to be able to catch people who really want to do something like that.

"Anybody's capable of doing something like that. I wouldn't put it past anybody. Anybody has that ability in them. You don't know what people have been through. You don't know what's making them angry. Some people just think that everyone's against them.

"In the case of Virginia Tech, I think our system failed. Because he had a known history of mental illness, and he was able to purchase a gun. That's where it failed. It wasn't Virginia Tech's fault. It's when the state records and the federal records don't work together when someone's purchasing a gun.

"I'm all for guns. I'm pro-gun. If you're a law-abiding citizen, then you should be allowed to have one. But I do also think that they need to make the rules and regulations more effective. I think the laws should be strict, and the policies should make it difficult to get a gun -- thorough background checks and mental history and whatnot -- but then you should be allowed to have a gun. The rules are actually already there, but so many places don't carry them out.

"You can't ever judge someone in a situation like that unless you were there yourself. But honestly, for how many bullets he fired -- and I think it was almost 200 bullets, with as short a clip as he had in those types of guns -- when you see somebody reloading, then the thought must go through your mind, 'Am I going to sit here in fear, or am I going to take action and stop this?' And I don't understand how no one took action in that situation at Virginia Tech. Honestly, I think I would have gone out fighting. You know, picked up a desk or something and thrown it at him. Something. It's better than just sitting there and wondering if you'll be next. When your adrenaline's pumping, you've got to act on it.

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